Tuesday, July 08, 2008

where am I...

A happy place. No really I am...

I think I am in some kind of denial place about my sister right now. I am going to go with it for now. Feels good not to cry so much. Maybe I am in the MAD portion of the grieving because I really am kinda ignoring her right now.

So I haven't really said much about this pregnancy lately. I am about 26 weeks, and getting huge. Why haven't I said anything much about this pregnancy? To be very honest, it has just been very very easy. I mean I was so sick with Kya the WHOLE pregnancy, it was all I thought about. Not to mention it was the only thing I had to think about. Work was boring half the time and I was working from home so all I would do was sit at home and obsess about how sick I was and HOLY FUCK I was ACTUALLY pregnant..... and my whole life was going to change and I was going to be a MOM!!!

Yeah... so this time around it is true what they all say. I don't have the time anymore to sit around and obsess. I have an almost two year old who is HELLOOOOOOOO a go getter kinda gal.

This baby does however remind me every night she is here and literally kicking. She loves to kick me all night and I have to say it is nice. I didn't end up renting the Doppler this time because I didn't want to obsess. I wanted to just enjoy this as it is... and realize I have no control over what happens. SO at night when all is quiet, and baby starts kicking the poop outta my insides I just smile to myself and think.. that's right baby girl, your here, and I love you already.

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Thanks for all your comments on the partial placenta previa! I am not longer worried about it. I go in for my next ultrasound on the 18th (TOTALLY NEW DR!) and I am excited to confirm the sex as well as see the placenta has moved up.
Posted by Mojavi at 2:56 PM

3 comments:

Tracey said...

I am so sorry about your sister... I can only imagine how much that hurts.

It's amazing how the pregnancy flies by with subsequent babies, isn't it? Sadly, their babyhoods seem to fly by faster, too! I remember, with my third, holding her in the hospital and just being SO SAD because I KNEW it was gonna be a blink of an eye and she would be grown up. (I'm pretty sentimental...)

Good luck on the ultrasound!

6:45 AM
Lainey-Paney said...

Good luck at the upcoming dr appt. I've got my fingers crossed that the placenta moves!

...okay, but I can't keep 'em crossed until the 18th....because it's really interfering with my typing....

6:50 PM
Sara said...

I'm in my about 30th week (?) of my 3rd pregnancy. I'm just not keeping track. I'm too busy. I almost forget that I'm hugely pregnant. But like you, I notice the baby kicking at night, when I finally settle down after kid chasing all day. It's nice.

5:26 PM

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